I miss my ex beyond belief. While we weren't on the same pages of life, she was truly my best friend. There were good times, and there were a lot of bad times, but we always would end up laughing at the end of our arguments.

I hate that my mistakes hurt her. She couldn't see past my flaws, and it ended up ruining her.

Being the shitty fucking person I am, I am now adding to the void through one night stands and meaningless sex. I had a fucking threesome with 18 year olds.... I feel disgusting and a shell of the person I once was when her and I were together.