i've had tinder dates back when i was like 20, went on 2 and had like 3 more agreed on but i chickened out because i was autistic about going out. one girl was interested in me but she was fat and ugly and smelled back so i said it won't work out and she threatened to kill me

anyway the whole process of talking to women was the most soul sucking thing i ever did. god i felt like a fucking monkey in a circus. i told myself i'll try again when i move out but i never did because fuck doing that again. and from what i've been told it's now 100 times worse than it was in 2018 so i doubt i'd ever get a date.

now i'm a 27 virgin and i don't care anymore. i can't even imagine having to spend time with someone else, i like being by myself too much.