Have you ever cried in front of your crush because she rejected you?
I went to her house and rubbed her thigh with my knee. I could feel it dig like an inch into her fat and she giggled. Then she sat me down and said "I know you like having someone to talk to, but it can't be me. It can't be me." Then I tried to touch her comforting thigh again with a toy sword, but she made a disgusted face this time, and I thought, "but that made you laugh like 30 seconds ago." I put it down, and she could tell I was sad and understood what was happening, so she started talking to me in this weird voice I've never heard her make before. It sounded like some motherly lullaby voice saying "coooome oooon" as in "get out of my house," but in a nice way. Firstly, I didn't know she could make her voice sound so attractive and unopposable. And two, it felt condescending, and I felt like telling her "just because I'm gonna cry that doesn't mean you have to use that voice on me." I asked "before you make me leave, will you answer one question? Will you tell me what you think about my crush on you?" And she said "at first I thought it was cute, but now I think it's creepy." Because I have actual OCD, and if normies get obsessive with their crushes you can only imagine the level of crazy actual OCD unleashes. Then I said "I know it's creepy but I can't stop." Then she went from looking angry to looking shocked, and said "well, maybe you need to stop talking to me, for you." Then I walked out into the rain which you could hear the whole convo and it felt like God was trying to make it more dramatic in purpose.

Years later I exploded her DMs on FB like I'm short circuiting again. She muted me, but didn't block me, and that made me feel relieved because compulsions are distressing, and it felt like she understood I couldn't control myself, so she's gonna do it for me. She blocked me eventually though and made her account private. I've rejected like 10 other females even though she moved on.

>>22871552
you kind of have to at this point