Why are virgins frowned upon?

I'm a fucking retard

>in hospital mental illness ward
>just have fun and try to make people laugh
>this girl starts talking to me
>become attracted to her
>can't do anything because the constant camera systems, bed checks etc. like they don't want anyone to ever fuck ever in their life
>get her number before we discharge on dif dates
>talk for a bit
>realize that she is indeed, fucking crazy
>but so alone willing to at least try
>it fizzles out over the course of a month or so
>stop talking for 6 months
>going to give plasma because i'm poor
>see some random girl drive by in a car
>she calls out to me
>acts fucking weird, like does a little fake dance in the car
>just ignored her and kept walking, thought she was trying to bully me or something(I am also insane)
>few months go by
>giving plasma again
>the girl I met at the hospital is sitting adjacent and across from me
>finally recognize her
>recognize that it was her in the car
>she gives me a frown
>don't know how the fuck to act
>look in the opposite direction
>she leaves before me

Now I have to schedule my plasma donations on different days because I'm retarded

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