>prayer
Goddess who touches meat and web,
Outside, the beach, inside, we tread
On deep waters, fishing for bravery to dive
Or bravery to die, to be unfolding undead
The primordial sin of nature on which we fed
Coral Khôra greet us underwater with dread
You know, great red, the water’s within
Pray join us there, teach us to swim

i also released a new variant of the theophagy ritual, this time something that is a much more grounded and structured. this is meant to be something like a eucharistic communion with both hidweh and eopya. the hand and the eye is a reference to sabbatic practice. there the hand (symbolized by a pentagram) represents manifestation while the eye represents the presentation of numinous imagery. i associate the eye with the medulla partly because the last time i entered a hypnagogia i noticed a lot of ringing in my medulla that sort of freaked me out. the medulla is also at the very top of the spine and is sort of a vanguard between the brain and the rest of the body. for the hand i just chose the literal hands because that just works. ive sort of also thought about something like a “theophagy of the hand” sans the eye wherein one lets the eye become possessed by spirits and then perform theophagy on the spiritual energies in order to incorporate them into one’s being

ive already thought about how deep the cannibalistic elements of the eucharists are in terms of trying to internalize christ, but this video further prompted me to create this ritual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7H6yubiEnfQ. i thought “oh wow another person thought about this idea of eating spirits that’s cool”, and he really highlighted the communion aspect of things.

oh one last thing to note is that the overall structure is like the typical procedure when praying at a shinto shrine but reversed. typically coins are deposited at the start as they r thought of as gathering sin. the reversion cements the stain being interojected into the body.