I made friends with a guy on /ic/ who was really improving and studying every day while I was, and still am, enjoying the easy life doing furry porn commissions. he even redlined my degenerate commissions and helped me out whenever I had rendering questions and then I found out he killed himself. And after I realized what happened I went to his tumblr to download all the art he posted but it got deleted because they banned 'pornography' and he had a bunch of tasteful nude studies on there. I've never been so mad and so sad at once in my life. rip mathias. I've had people I was much closer to die but for some reason this one really stuck to me and I'm still not over it