>>5059575
I feel guilty too. She was always such an inspiration for me... until she wasn't, or rather I had stopped being aware of it. Because life came along - with all its responsibilities and obligations that slowly bleed you dry, pulling you into the rat race that we as a society have so passionately established. I'm angry with myself for letting it win, for letting it make me forget what really matters, all the things I used to be so passionate about. Her death helped me both realize and remember all of it.
So I guess that with Michelle, the second most inspiring woman in my life (right after my mom, that's a given), but without question the most beautiful one, I also mourn the merciless passage of time, forsaken ideals and lost blissful youth.
Unbeknownst to her, she has given me so much, but I always took it for granted.
I don't think she cared much about fame, but she definitely valued being recognized and hearing what she meant to people. I wish I had offered her some words of thanks and support while she was still here. Now it's too late.

I'm sorry Michelle.