Sometimes I have this reaction too but then I think about it in the fact that if I enjoy it and properly integrate it into my body as use it's energy for the greater good or to develop some skill then it isn't a waste. I think maybe sort of in the native American view (i don't know anything about native americans) how they still held them in great severance but made sure they were being properly utilized, for example right now I'm thinking about how total chicken death is powering human ingenuity like porcelain toilets and wall tiles ( because I'm raking a bath right now). But I do love cows I'll take my gf to random farms sometimes ans well talk to them and whisper sweet nothings in their ears. Cows are deope. Might transition to try to eat fish mainly.