>finally get in hrt
>happier then iv ever been
>also more suicidal then ever now too?

Idgi. im not sad anymore? Now it just seems like nature. The inevitable future. The sun is warm and the sky is pretty and i will be die soon. My loved ones love me and i love them and that doesnt change anything.

Be like christ, not like christians.
>Get a whip
>Use it