>>60559452
Waking up from bad dreams and being constantly reminded that none of this is real. I invest too little into meditations and metaphysical experience and too much on material whims. I must get past those blue grids.

It just means I'm addicted to retarded shit, business as usual.

Could you drive 2hrs to the middle of a busy bridge, park in traffic, and hurl yourself off the side? No large guide rails, but you gotta do it quick.

What snacks should I buy to get through the night?