because im extremely depressed i just type a bunch of stuff and everyone calls me schizo and nigger and says to go away i cant even express anything to her in a normal way.

im still doing everything i can im taking the meds im going to work tomorrow.
betty you did inspire me to turn my life around and im still trying im so sorry you had to experience what a pos i am. im really really trying to change i dont want to be this way.

those things i said wasnt the mask coming off that was me putting a mask on because i was afraid of being called out and being embarrassed and hurt. i promise i didnt mean any of that nasty shit i said please god dont think any of that is true. no sober or sane person would ever say those things.
the things i told you when i was happy, that was the truth i promise. thats who you really are.