>>103041724
Here's what you're gonna do. Find a conservative (different from orthodox) synagogue, go there and talk with the rabbi to get all your questions and misconceptions answered. Pray with them, get invited to share a meal with them, maybe see if you can volenteer for something. You might think they are closed off to gentiles, but they open their hearts if yours also is opened. Here's to hoping you find your princess/queen soon *clinks glass*