i'm going back to being despondent again immediately, i don't have the wherewithal to respond to everyone who replied to >>102637458 personally, but i want all my fellow naplings who saw theirselves in what i said to know that, even if it's painful and miserable and it hurts right now, that you DO deserve to be loved and you CAN find happiness in the world, whether or not nimi has anything to say about it. and if you can't believe in yourself, i hope you can believe in the me that believes in /uuu/