I normally don't post but I'm a diasporic bengalijeet although not born there and I have this to say

Don't post threads like this. It reflects poorly on everybody, although as an ethnic group our worldwide optics are already in the dirt.

It's better to live life and be present, avoid thinking about what could have been or what could be. Socially well adjusted peolle, regardless of their race can find a good partner and have a fulfilling relationship. Obviously, neither of us are those, that's why we're here, but limit your time in spaces like this.

Go for a walk, make some music, take a cold shower, play a puzzle-mystery game, read some manga, volunteer at a church, go fishing, whatever interests you but threads like this are pointless. Please stop trying to prove to internet nerds that you aren't what they think you are, the opinion will never change me.

Do something relaxing, stimulate your vagus nerve, reduce your cortisol levels, and stop having pointless parasocial internet fights. You can not win. Nobody wins in this game, this isn't the way to vent or get validation, you will only dig yourself into a deeper ditch when it comes to your identity struggles. You're combative on here because you're trapped by your ego and need for validation. Don't think it makes you look any less like the stereotype you're attempting to avoid to others, it only brings you deeper into it. What you're doing right now is the equivalent of trying to grab something from a high surface, but your efforts are only pushing it further out of your reach.