why does my life feel like i'm being strapped to an invisible bed of nails?

>>530986216
>the game is already good

i used to just be a weird idiot but now i'm a weird idiot with an eating disorder and a little bit of money, so i eat fast food as much as i can and throw energy drinks down my neck like a cheap caffeine slut, also i don't exercise at all and i smoke cigarettes, this lifestyle is fucked but i have no idea what else to do with my life

>Nuke this, nuke that
>It's happening

How old are you, 12?