Can someone help me figure out what's wrong with me and what I should do next?
>on mini vacation with gf of 6 months
>she expresses to me that she wants to start dieting
>tell her I support her
>then she says we should cut back on getting high since it causes her to binge eat
>tell her she just needs to exercise some self control, no need to cut out getting high
>she says it's not just about the binge eating, that she's worried I'm too dependent on THC
>tell her my use of booze and THC is only because my life is stressful and it's something for me to look forward to on the weekends
>she shuts down and cries
>I'm irritated and feel bad
>a few hours later I'm still a bit perturbed
>a cop is randomly rude to me when I'm literally just minding my own business
>hold my tongue but absolutely lose my shit immediately after
>have a full on angry crying episode for hours
>gf is worried and scared
>don't know how to tell her this is literally why I need to get high and drunk because I can't handle bullshit like this
What should I do? I'm already on anxiety/depression meds to keep me from kysing but I self medicate because I hate being dependent οn doctors