I think I'm retarded. Like low 90s iq. I've never got it formally tested and those online one give me some absurdly high number but I think I'm definitely a brainlet.

I have a lot of trouble with thinking and understanding things and memory. If I'm listening or more often reading something a lot of the time I won't absorb what they're telling me, it's like sand in a sieve. I also struggle with planning and logic and stuff like that. Basic math. I think slow. Putting my thoughts into words, even making this post is kind of difficult.

I used to feel smarter years ago but I don't know if I really was or if I'm just more cognizant of my idiocy now. So what can I do to make myself smarter.