>>936901558
Take your mood stabilizer, or do whatever thing gets you back to a manageable state. This back and forth is only fucking you up, You've apologized, they say that you're insincere, cut your losses, they don't take you seriously anyhow. Best to stop beating yourself up over it now. Sucks, sure, but it's just going to fuck you up more if you think there's something to be gained from this back and forth with them, there's not.