>>29098173
>Massage Parlor or directly with an Escort
you'll never see these whores again. Tell them you're a virgin and its your first time. They'll take care of you.
A REAL escort will put you at ease, probably do erotic massage, get you to relax and be body positive. You'll get extra care from them. If its a cheap hooker, she'll be a dead fish (avoid those).
DEFINITELY get this "over with". It will change your life and how you view yourself and women for the better. You didn't have 'young love' as an early teen so the horse is out of the barn. The only thing you'd be 'saving yourself' for is a major disappointment at this late a stage in your life.

Your intuition is right on going with a rubjob, UNLESS you really need to find out what its like to fuck a woman (you DO know how right?)