i’m gonna be honest- i’m a fat woman who wants to be skinny but i’m retarded and have binge eating disorder. i desperately want to find a website or forum that encourages fat people to restrict food in the fucked up eating disordered way, but also in like a porn/sexual abuse type of way. i know it’s pathetic, but i can’t help it. i don’t care if it’ll ruin me, i actually really want it to.