I suffered until I graduated.
I've thought on it for a while and ultimately came to realize my bullies are pathetic losers then and now while I've accomplished a lot and have great relationships with people who care about me,
So letting them affect me now would be pathetic and gives them an underserved win.

I try to let those memories fuel me now.
But yeah, being in a situation like that for years, with zero control, zero escape, and a not so good home life when you're a developing child obviously has serious effects on your mind.

I loved this episode of black mirror and would have done a lot worse to my bullies.
Normaloids just wouldn't get it.