>>81692222
>be an autistic fembrowncel
>guys thought i was gross and avoided me like the plague
>family members telling me to get a boyfriend for the 50th time
So there we go that's the trauma. Girl, porn is not reality. All that smut you read is fantasy. That's cool as long as you recognize it and keep it in that lane. Don't expect any man to replicate it and especially don't go out into the world seeking that sexual thrill cause my sista, reality is mad different. Take pride in your celibacy. As a woman, a black woman at that, when a man puts his seed into you. You've given that man everything and you risk potentially creating a child. When you go out into the world and date, take your time and really get to know the man and vet him. If any red flags show such as abusive tendencies, criminal history, or a lack of respect for you, then baby, RUN DONT WALK. But if you can find a man that respects you for u, appreciates your presence and character, a man willing to wait to put a ring on that finger before sex. Then baby, that's your dream man. Sister, take your time and don't let nobody rush you. As a black woman, this country and a lot of men don't have respect for you, so please have self respect. Don't let nobody rush you into anything, it's your life and don't waste it chasing what other people want for you. I respect you and I here you my sister. Good luck and put yourself first boo, never put a man who ain't worth a damn before you. We got too many single mothers and abuse victims. Make sure you not one of them.

>>81607974
If only you knew how bad things really are. Having a GF won't fix what your feeling.