OK, so I have multiple things.
So some time ago I joined the Army. Kinda out of a sense of adventure. I always wanted to become a soldier. Not really sure why tho. My contract goes 15 years in total here in my country (not the US) and I signed because I was sure Im gonna love it. Now it's too late to turn away.
Now I'm starting to have some serious doubts. Not because of some imminent war or anything of that sort. More like I'm seeing what I'm missing. I rarely see my friends, I don't date, I can't sign up for any clubs because I'm always on the move (from one course to another) I can't even play any video games because I'm sharing my room with a superior (which means I'm pretty much confined to my bed and I don't have ANY space for my pc, which also means I can't talk to my friends over discord etc.). I spend most of my time inside the barracks, which is really depressing desu (don't have a car). I can't afford an apartment (which wouldn't be worth it because I'm never actually staying at one place for longer than a month).
It kind of just feels like I'm not really living life... I can't just call in sick and just go on a hike like I used to do before the military.
And the job I'm doing isn't even that fun. Were rarely outside. I'm either just sitting around my room or I'm doing some bullshit work for some sgt that I'm 100% NOT trained to do. And the people I work with... Man, I thought that this (the military) is a place for hard-working people with motivation but that's not true. Most here are total degenerates that are abusing every substance known to man. They're super unmotivated and look down on me for actually wanting to learn. So that's also not really nice. Here I was thinking I'm gonna become a better/fitter person, but the people I'm supposed to work with have nothing better to do than just sit around and talk about porn and raves all day.
Hope It gets better some day... Have a nice day /wg/ <3