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6/15/2025, 11:21:02 PM
>>101228441
>the roca is your dad today and she is back with milk and cigarettes
>streams wont be fully back as usual just yet
>was in the hospital for a long long time
>out but not fully recovered, a LOT better now
>read all the sweet messages you sent, multiple times
>sweating like crazy *sweat asmr* can you hear that?
>*short yap about camping*
>>chat makes it about piss
>you guys havent changed... i love it
>welcome back
>getting quiet cause overwhelmed
>gonna take so long to catch up and get used to streaming again
>this whole stream is gonna be me saying im happy to see you guys...
>you guys missed me right?
>cant sleep in my own bed yet
>i have a transformer bed in the living room
>kept writing stream ideas in a notebook
>wanted to answer questions ask for maros, got a bunch of really random ones
>like, "what fruit would you be?"
>the roca is more plum sized than grape sized
>dont go too far with the jokes, but i can say those
>sometimes they just slip out (the plums?!)
>next few weeks will be collab heavy to spend time with talents who will soon graduate
>*being silly about nether portals to the netherlands and armpits and potatoes*
>been reading a lot during recovery, might do a bookclub
>the Roca is not a fan of fanfics
>voice still needs to heal but will do karaoke streams again, building back up slowly, please be patient
>been practicing guitar, got a really cool looking one
>will do a dad rock karaoke, pinky pro- ROCK promise \m/
>can tell much about the accident, it was really fucking traumatic and the specifics would lead to real identity
>there was so much going on after the accident, and a lot of pain, did not wait to make big decisions then and there
>initial reaction to it was anger, pissed of at everything, why me, why always me? i was trying to do my best and work my ass off and i tried to be good
>was so fucking angry it happened 1 day before my birthday and fucked up all the promises i had made to you guys
>there was a lot of uncertainty, wasnt sure i could do any of this ever again
>you never think about how everyone you've worked for could be gone in a second... unless you have anxiety i guess
>sitting is painful, wondering if i could stream laying down, maybe do a sleeping stream
WHY DO THEY ALL WANT TO DO THAT
(I MEAN I WOULD LOVE IT BUT WHY)
>maybe just 1 or 2 stream a week, with a lot of collabs at first
>then we slowly build up stamina over time, dont rush me, but ill do my best
>maybe also movie nights on top of that
>longer birthday stream will still happen just not right away
>will be at offkai and there's also something cooking for the eurobros, also you did not hear that from me
>*yapping about eurovision for a bit*
>the medical situation might cause future hitatus it's not super likely but it's a possibility that further surgery is needed, also gotta be careful about my voice
>but will be there, you wont get rid of me
>really exhausted, this is much harder alone compared to the collab yesterday
>will address donos next stream, support means a lot
>told myself i wont cry during stream, sad times are over
>was really lonely without you guys, reminded me of other bad times in my life where i was lonely
>i know it was not my fault but it still feels like defeat and failure and you guys deserve better, im sorry
>shower the girls with love while you can, i care about them and i think they are good people
>*humming endless love*
>gotta wrap up now, have a migraine
>if you have cool suggestions for movie nights or bookclub or whatever, let me know
>it was very nice to see you all
>thank you so much for today
>*eats you*
THE END
>the roca is your dad today and she is back with milk and cigarettes
>streams wont be fully back as usual just yet
>was in the hospital for a long long time
>out but not fully recovered, a LOT better now
>read all the sweet messages you sent, multiple times
>sweating like crazy *sweat asmr* can you hear that?
>*short yap about camping*
>>chat makes it about piss
>you guys havent changed... i love it
>welcome back
>getting quiet cause overwhelmed
>gonna take so long to catch up and get used to streaming again
>this whole stream is gonna be me saying im happy to see you guys...
>you guys missed me right?
>cant sleep in my own bed yet
>i have a transformer bed in the living room
>kept writing stream ideas in a notebook
>wanted to answer questions ask for maros, got a bunch of really random ones
>like, "what fruit would you be?"
>the roca is more plum sized than grape sized
>dont go too far with the jokes, but i can say those
>sometimes they just slip out (the plums?!)
>next few weeks will be collab heavy to spend time with talents who will soon graduate
>*being silly about nether portals to the netherlands and armpits and potatoes*
>been reading a lot during recovery, might do a bookclub
>the Roca is not a fan of fanfics
>voice still needs to heal but will do karaoke streams again, building back up slowly, please be patient
>been practicing guitar, got a really cool looking one
>will do a dad rock karaoke, pinky pro- ROCK promise \m/
>can tell much about the accident, it was really fucking traumatic and the specifics would lead to real identity
>there was so much going on after the accident, and a lot of pain, did not wait to make big decisions then and there
>initial reaction to it was anger, pissed of at everything, why me, why always me? i was trying to do my best and work my ass off and i tried to be good
>was so fucking angry it happened 1 day before my birthday and fucked up all the promises i had made to you guys
>there was a lot of uncertainty, wasnt sure i could do any of this ever again
>you never think about how everyone you've worked for could be gone in a second... unless you have anxiety i guess
>sitting is painful, wondering if i could stream laying down, maybe do a sleeping stream
WHY DO THEY ALL WANT TO DO THAT
(I MEAN I WOULD LOVE IT BUT WHY)
>maybe just 1 or 2 stream a week, with a lot of collabs at first
>then we slowly build up stamina over time, dont rush me, but ill do my best
>maybe also movie nights on top of that
>longer birthday stream will still happen just not right away
>will be at offkai and there's also something cooking for the eurobros, also you did not hear that from me
>*yapping about eurovision for a bit*
>the medical situation might cause future hitatus it's not super likely but it's a possibility that further surgery is needed, also gotta be careful about my voice
>but will be there, you wont get rid of me
>really exhausted, this is much harder alone compared to the collab yesterday
>will address donos next stream, support means a lot
>told myself i wont cry during stream, sad times are over
>was really lonely without you guys, reminded me of other bad times in my life where i was lonely
>i know it was not my fault but it still feels like defeat and failure and you guys deserve better, im sorry
>shower the girls with love while you can, i care about them and i think they are good people
>*humming endless love*
>gotta wrap up now, have a migraine
>if you have cool suggestions for movie nights or bookclub or whatever, let me know
>it was very nice to see you all
>thank you so much for today
>*eats you*
THE END
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