>be me
>early 30s
>tried STEM, tried med school
>didn't last, dropped out of both after a few years
>high IQ, low conscientiousness, excelled in high school with lower workload. classic university dropout
>various low-income jobs in 20s

Here's the issue
>have a burning passion for music
>multi-instrumentalist and singer, but particularly in love with piano
>the one thing that requires no self-discipline to work on, the hard thing is walking away after three straight hours with no break
>been that way since I was a teenager and picked up the guitar, but currenly obsessed with piano
>play classical at the moment, advanced repertoire like Bach fugues and Beethoven sonatas
>actually REALLY good. non-musicians think I'm a professional concert pianist, actual professionals see through my imperfections, but tell me I could go pro with guidance and structure. my sound has been compared to famous pianists.
>other professionals I've played with in the past have also have encouraged me to pursue music professionally based on guitar and vocals as well
>still struggle with structure, even with everyday tasks like chores and showing up to work on time, as well as stage fright (not social anxiety, more general test anxiety, also a problem in university)

The hard thing for me is to believe that this is in any way financially feasible in the long run, in an economy that worsen with every passing day. Even though I love doing it and feel great during and after practice, and I think I would love to go pro, I still can't help feeling that I'm just wasting even more of my dwindling time as a young adult after spending four hours working out the kinks in a Chopin etude, especially when I compare myself to guys in their 20s who spend most of their time studying stocks and crypto.

Am I actually being productive, or is this just a healthy hobby, and any prospects of making a sustainable living is just a pipe-dream at my age?

I'm not American btw, I live in a socialist, European country.