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7/12/2025, 2:22:41 AM
>>8098863
ahh same here. i had a second wind in life when i discovered art and drawing, but it feels like it all went away when i realized how narcissistic i had become with trying to earn big numbers on social media.
i got rewarded for my learning way too fast, and then i hit a plateau. and everything began feeling unrewarding, all the hard work behind drawing a splendid picture began to feel empty, since it marks a tiny milestone in my life compared to the breaking through the first art milestone years ago. the self-doubt and self-critique never got easier.
i never been a terribly social person, which is why i preferred the anonymous forum of 4chan, but when people started respecting my skills and style, i began to feel like i had purpose in life. but when it started feeling empty, the pursuit becoming chasing another momentary high, it all fell apart. i forgot why drawing gave me purpose in the first place, that drawing to pass the time inbetween moments of wretched existence and learning new techniques for the sake of my own pursuits was what was keeping me alive.
nowadays i wonder if i just need another medium to keep going, or if i need to apply myself toward learning more advanced art tips and techniques. either way, i'm pretty damn tired.
it certainly didn't help me build a stable footing in my life financially, and my once-beloved past-time had became a small hell for me to revisit and relive the glory days. and overall i just feel detached from other creators, at the end of it all.
maybe i just need to shed the old profile i built up and start again from scratch, and become an art beginner all over again. or, like i said, find another medium to express myself. it's hard to find that third wind, i guess.
ahh same here. i had a second wind in life when i discovered art and drawing, but it feels like it all went away when i realized how narcissistic i had become with trying to earn big numbers on social media.
i got rewarded for my learning way too fast, and then i hit a plateau. and everything began feeling unrewarding, all the hard work behind drawing a splendid picture began to feel empty, since it marks a tiny milestone in my life compared to the breaking through the first art milestone years ago. the self-doubt and self-critique never got easier.
i never been a terribly social person, which is why i preferred the anonymous forum of 4chan, but when people started respecting my skills and style, i began to feel like i had purpose in life. but when it started feeling empty, the pursuit becoming chasing another momentary high, it all fell apart. i forgot why drawing gave me purpose in the first place, that drawing to pass the time inbetween moments of wretched existence and learning new techniques for the sake of my own pursuits was what was keeping me alive.
nowadays i wonder if i just need another medium to keep going, or if i need to apply myself toward learning more advanced art tips and techniques. either way, i'm pretty damn tired.
it certainly didn't help me build a stable footing in my life financially, and my once-beloved past-time had became a small hell for me to revisit and relive the glory days. and overall i just feel detached from other creators, at the end of it all.
maybe i just need to shed the old profile i built up and start again from scratch, and become an art beginner all over again. or, like i said, find another medium to express myself. it's hard to find that third wind, i guess.
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