OP here I'm sorry if I hurt anyone I wrote this at like 3 in the morning while really sad and mad about not getting a gf and I know, it's fucking pathetic. I tried deleting the thread and it's not going away and idk how to prove it's actually me so uh, any XX chromosomes entering the thread please disregard it. I didn't actually mean anything I wrote. i just wanted to hurt you and now I feel remorse so please forget it. Not bumping the thread for obvious reasons.