I want to return to the past but the past is gone, forever

>Day 2 nofap
>Dream about starting to have sex with a black girl
>She keeps telling me "your wiz is so big"
>Wake up

>like 95% visceral fat my whole life
>180s and 190s throughout most of teen years yet had the frame and face of someone of a much lower bodyfat percentage. Said i was "ambiguously fat"
>body composition changes sneak up on me
>suddenly 100% subcutaneous fat
>look hideous compared to before
>decide i have to get /fit/ ASAP
>lose close to 40 pounds and little change in face
>recently see my body twisting and morphing, sudden fat storage in cheeks then it goes away
>silhouette outside starting to look like how it did before
>neck thickness coming back
>shoulders coming back
>body coming back
>face and overall beauty returning
>tfw

i'm gonna make it bros...

>>211913436
you remind me of this 'merican from yotuube who used to larp as a prussian way back in 2020

those were the days