Getting a girlfriend doesn't change anything. I still feel terrible and I still want to die. Is there a happy end for me?

I'm really bored with my life, anon. I don't want to just finish college, get a 9-to-5 job, and marry someone just because I have to. I want my life to be more than that. But if I accepted that path, I wouldn't have to think too much. I really don't know. I'm just so bored out of my mind right now.