>meet girl in L4D
>shes a friend of one of my friends who invited her, so shes in walking distance of my house
>we hit it off instantly
>she goes to a different school but again, walling distance
>its both of ours first remotely serious relationships, and we’re both too cowardly for labels, so just get more and more conspicuously close
>one day she invites me over, we’re in her backyard
>somehow insantly telepathically know shes going to try to kiss me, to this day dont know how i deduced this the instant i saw her seeing as we hadnt been physical at all
>too scared, make up excuses to ruin the moment
>it turn out her dad got a new job and theyre moving
>keep in touch with her for nearly three years without physical contact
>she even admits she was trying to kiss me
>things finally fade
>one year ago, decide to contact her for the first time in years
>send her an email
>she responds, says shes a man now in a way clearly phrased as an apology
>I feel physically sick, since half of my memories are cuddling with her and that day at her house
>dont respond to her
>she doesnt send any follow up messages either
Truly an “it is what it is” moment. My actual first kiss ended up being this latina girl who grabbed my face and sloppily kissed me in public, about one week before she cheated on me by screwing a 15 year old (we were both 19 at the time). I did not invest in the luck stat.