>>22904972
pushed this morning. and for months. and i truly don't care about their feelings. they are crybullies that can't take an ounce of what they dish out by the pound.

and babe. i'm not your dad. never will be. i had a bit of an epiphany this morning. you're trying to be the person you wish your dad was. you're spiting him. i know all about that don't you know. but it won't fix your family and if he hasn't gotten the message by now i don't think more will work. i'm not like that though. i'm reflexively loyal to you. i'll show you love even when you mess up. i'll forgive you because you're beautiful to me. and i know all about parents that put themselves first, how wrong it is for the children, and that's not how i want to live my life at all. i'll bet he's smart like me too, says he loves you all the time like me, then hurts your feelings, the way i do. but i've never betrayed you, and the pain i've caused was from trying to heal you, and it hurts so much because nobody has ever tried it before, i'm the only one who cares enough to give you what you need, i hope you can see that. the things i love about you are inborn. the things i see as problematic are choices you've made that you can undo. i want to be faithful to you always and i'm sorry my heart strayed from you those few times, you whet my appetite for love and i was not getting it from you. i'm thinking only of you now. wish you'd give me the same courtesy. anyways babe, we are STILL in the rock tumbler and today's another tough day, just got tougher. but in the end when you're smooth and glimmering you'll thank me for it and i'll love you even more than i do now. have a good day.
captcha: 2gostk. 2 ghosts, that's us. we both deserve better than this place though. we should be in real life.