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Basically not getting mindfucked by the constant onslaught of sex through technology makes me feel like I'm breaking out of prison or something. Like we're all slaves on some dystopian plantation and there's evil agent smiths wanting to keep us trapped in the same cycle. But by tapping into my own internal power I have the keys to just drive away from the prison and hit the highway where there's fresh air and freedom to go wherever.
That's big picture, even if it sounds kinda schizo. And on the day to day whenever urges or bad thoughts come to me, sometimes very strong and convincing, the only thing that keeps me grounded in my strength is almost laughing it off and thinking "I'm so fucking crazy I'm just gonna keep plowing through anyways".
Even if the wave of negativity is really strong I just pioneer on through just because. It's a hard feeling to describe, it's like you know you're being attacked by a strong urge, you know how your old self would react, then your new dissociated observer self just kind of laughs it off. So I somehow broke the old connection and embraced my inner craziness.
I've always been considered a little weird and eccentric, kind of like a Kramer.