>>535737080
as I've been coming back to reality after a series of fixations have finally calmed down, I feel like I found another set of illusions in my head to tear down in order to understand myself better and processing that has been more difficult than it usually is
I wish I had proper words to describe how I feel but each time I get closer to understanding myself it's like I drift further away from everyone and lose more connections than I'm able to gain back ever again, I don't even feel lonely or miserable just... something with no words for it
