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I feel no remorse.
... inkling of suspicion about me. That also means I lie about doing well mentally. I am NOT! I would like mental help, I guess, but I cannot recover from this cancer, so I am fully clocked out. No help. Take the easy path. Give in. But most importantly, have fun! Do what you want! Awake's (?? unsure, says 'avaiks') story was pretty cool. I admire his efforts to get away and keep going, he didn't to too (?? maybe 'two') bad for a cringe ass lil' suka! I also liked his outfit. Slay, queen! Haha. Very risky being on a perch (?? unsure about last letter, maybe 'peru'). like that easily spotted or cornered (? maybe 'cornevd'). Awake (?) got really lucky, I guess. I wonder what was going through his head as he saw his mother (??) after the attack! I am so shocked he was able to get a gun with how obvious his online activity was. If he was able to get a license in Illinois?! I should have no fucking problem. I don't know why he let himself be arrested. He could have shot a cop and died. His loss!