For a long time, I was ashamed of being a useless neet. Now I'm starting to think I had the right idea. Starting up 2 jobs and trying to get into dating. Kicking some of my money up to help Ma get a nice house. I guess it sounds nice on paper but in reality I'm so fucking worried about the future. Am I just gonna be a slave like this forever? I guess that's what happens when you care about others more than yourself. Hopefully one day I can see that I have been given some great reward.

"The way I see it there's two types of people, those who spend their lives trying to build a future and those who spend their lives trying to rebuild the past."

Sorry if I'm schizo rambling, just needed to air it out.