i know she hates me and wouldnt care if i died theres no delusions about her loving me.

thats why im falling apart because i do love her theres something wrong with me i cant detach. it meant so much to me to see a message from her or even get a like on a reply.
i would sit with it looking at it over and over again all night until i fell asleep.

its all i had im such a pathetic person