im lowkey getting addicted to psychedelics. is this a bad or good thing and is it fembrained. mtf btw

To not want to date anyone until I transitioned and pass?

I’m 20, never dated anyone. I got attention from some girls/gay guys but felt like I was faking it. I also have bottom dysphoria and I’d rather not have someone lust over something I dislike.

I’d rather atleast look like a woman, or pass before I try dating anyone. Is that normal? Feels like I missed out on so much.

If I get it next year I’ll be 21, and need ffs to pass. What excuses can I say? I’ll for sure be getting tier 3 brow reduction, rhino, and hairline lowering. Maybe something else to feminize the eye area.

It’s so over, my bidelt width from the middle shoulder to the other is 19inches. From the top of the shoulders it’s 16inches 2/3s. I’m also 5’9.2 but literally wearing any shoes gives me an extra .5inch. I’m taller than most women. My underbust is 31inches but I pretty much starvemaxxed.

I’m anorexic maxxing rn. I fucking hate my parents for being so fucking anti lgbt and never letting me start hrt as a kid.

I look like a weird twink. Idk if my insurance can cover shit or not. I need to get really lucky. I’ve been on diy for 6 months so doctors don’t even know I’m on E.

Theres literally no hope for me. Why do I have to have this weird ass shit I tried everything to live as male.

Literally the only benefit e gave was it turned me into a twink in 6 months