She has every right to be sick of my anxiety, my outburts, and the fact that I still watch porn. I haven't been a good son in many senses of the word and our conversations summed it up that me being at home isn't good for any of us.
I have apologised but let's face it, narcissists don't change their spots, or care about others, too selfish, now not all are toxic like me, but some are and I know I am one of them.

I have to stay in the area, I am 21 and haven't lived out of home before, I sound like a prick I know it, so I have a few options, but I gotta pick one that doesn't make my mum worried and strain things between us more. She isn't in the mood for another chance for me, so I am not just saying I will move out for no reason or to be a smartass. Any advice for moving out of home for the first time? I'd appreciate anything yuou have to say, I know I will get hated on here for being an asshole and I deserve that much at least. I hope I burn in hell.

what should I do? Tell me anything, I l know what I am...

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Me:
Age - 21
Sex - Male
Location - NSW, (coastal town)
Kinks - Virgin, but filming myself, cfnm, feet, missionary, real intimacy
Sexuality - Straight
Weight - 97kg
Height - 185
Social media: will provide if a lady asks.
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