>>49888377
I developed a doll fetish so any potential future partners would immediately be weirded out by me. This combined with my mental health issues would make me even more undesirable so I've kinda given up on relationships completely. Barbies, Bratz and monster high dolls used to turn me on as a kid and then as I got older and was able to buy things with my part time job I amassed a collection of them. Not long after I discovered bjds and it was a turning point for me. At first it was the female figure on those barbie dolls that I was attracted to but after I got into bjds I realized there's another side to them that I fell in love with. Dolls have an untainted beauty, I love their blank expression and the gorgeous faces painted on bjds. For me there is no living being, man or female that can match that unattainable beauty that dolls capture. After bjds I got into mini sex dolls and not long after I bought a normal full size one. I don't feel bad about using her for sex because that's what she's made for compared to the guilt I would feel glueing a gorgeous bjd face but I do still feel a small amount of guilt because the craftsmanship on sex dolls are really impressive. I love realistic looking ones or ones with unique faces but the closest sex doll that captures this unnatural pretty doll face perfectly are the orient industry berry dolls but unfortunately the brand went under last year so there's no way to get these anymore.

TLDR; This fetish for dolls makes me feel less attraction towards real women and any normal person would find me weird so partners are out of the question for me.

>>49890825
I don't hate women or place the blame on them for my own faults. I am not mentally stable or well enough for a real relationship.