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i didnt ask to get ulcerative colitis

i didnt ask for it to take my life as i knew it away from me in the span of less than 18 months

i didnt ask to have to shit 15-30x/day with extreme pain and no warning urgency

i didnt ask to have accidents in public because i couldnt get to a toilet in time

i didnt ask for it to lead to osteoporosis because of drs giving me prednisone to stop my intestines endlessly bleeding me to death because obamacare refused to cover modern medicines that likely would have stopped my disease in its tracks - i had to fail 40yr old drugs first; wasting precious months

i didnt ask to have frequent weekslong stays in the hospital needing blood transfusions

i didnt ask to fracture my spine in 2018 after 2mo in the hospital where a doctor abused me

i didnt ask for all of that to leave me mostly bedridden since 2016

i didnt ask to develop ptsd and panic disorder after that hospital dr abused me

i didnt ask for all that shit and poverty to delay my transition until 34

i didnt ask to be in severe chronic physical pain every single day for the last 10 years

i didnt ask to be dependent on opioids just to keep living thru how much pain i endure from my fractured/deformed spine; ruined joints; and still horrific abdominal pains- though thats one area thats improved since last year after a new medicine

i didnt ask to have wild screaming/self harming panic attacks every day in 2022 and 2023; i had gotten over the hospital dr abuse in 2019 as my fractures healed; but a new heartbreak and emotional trauma brought me to the worst mental state of my life

i didnt ask to slice my arm open and bleed all over the floor in one of those attacks in 2023

i didnt ask to be helpless and unable to work or care for myself

i didnt ask for any of my shitty adult life; but thanks to my goddess and faith; and people who cared about me; ive survived it

i didnt ask my soulmate wife to marry me on our first date last year

She asked me.

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