I feel like other people just look 'cleaner' than me, in some way I can't put into words. Their skin looks cleaner. Their teeth, their hair. They look so much more put together.

I try hard to present myself in a flattering light, but I feel sloppy and unkempt. I have no idea if this is real or in my head. I suppose it doesn't matter. I can only be as I am. But still, it gnaws at me.