>>82386467
>youtube
>twitch
Seems one sided. Perhaps not good for socialization.

I don't think anyone really has an interest in anyones blogposts/rants. Unless there's some interesting details.

Why do you enjoy talking online?
Do you want long term friends to keep talking to?
Talking online is not very fulfilling to me. Nothing ever happens.
I want something to happen in my life.
I want to do something. Not talk about it.

my uncle shouted at me in front of everyone.
He thought I didn't take any photos.
I did, but I thought maybe I didn't save them properly.
But he was actually looking at the wrong thing.

My heart crumples too easily to anxiety.
I didn't want to take photos for fear of messing up / being criticized.
It turns out you don't even have to fuck up for it to go wrong...

bros, my cousin fell and injured her head.
Now she's acting all weird n shit like an autistic.
She stared at me, moving her head in a strange manner, showing me some toys.
I froze and just looked back. I didn't know what to do. I felt so uncomfortable.
I barely ever made eye contact with her before this, and certainly not for this long.

They say she should get better eventually, but I don't believe them.
I didn't really interact with her much prior. I generally avoid all interactions with my cousins, especially the foids.
But it's weird. That version of her that I knew is basically gone now isn't it?
I feel like I don't really have so much attachment to life, but I'm not sure now.
I figured something like this wouldn't phase me, but I feet somewhat somber.

Also I'm worried I'll hurt myself one day and end up like that.
It was such a simple mistake.