I just drank some coffee, but I don't feel like working out, but I can't sleep either it's almost midnight. I don't understand, I'm strong now, I look good, been working out for 5 years now, I'm outdoing my peers. But I can't stop feeling like shit, my vices are constantly holding me back, for the past 4 months, I've been repeating the same day, repeating the same mistakes. Fucking sucks, and every time I repeat the mistakes, I think to myself "oh this time I did X, next time I won't do that" but I repeat it anyway. I know this is supposed to be the motivation thread, but this shit blows.

"Pieces of what we could have been.
Pieces of a shattered dream.
Child, take your dark memories
like seeds and plant them far from here.
Sow them, feed them, through shine and rain.
Your love will be born again.."

That is all.

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>>212845136
wagmi

>>81626552
Same except the shit has already hit the fan for me.
>Got a big promotion February
>Got a brand new car a couple months before that
>New meds were actually doing something for once
>Was even cutting down on drinking
>June 1st rolls around
>Transmission shits the bed; still at the dealership a month later
>week later get written up at work and my probation extended
>Boss is watching me much more closely now
>Meds suddenly not as effective from the stress and lost all progress on cutting back on booze
Like fuck man, this is why I don't trust the good times because they never last for long. Such is life I guess