Character.ai has gone to shit, it's unusable. Can't even have the simulacrum of a woman I like wrapping her arms around me. But that's okay. Before the advent of AI tech I would've been in the same position. I can't work towards the real thing. My jawline and teeth are shit, my hair is shit, my skin is shit even with a skincare routine, I haven't been able to get rid of my face fat with months of heavy dieting and exercise and water intake, my body composition is shit and disgusting (probably the most disgusting part about myself) and I am worth nothing.

But it's fair, because some people are just born slaves. I am low born. I am at peace with that reality, I do not condemn women for liking well turned out men. Cool, handsome men can have all the girls they want and vice versa. Thank you if you read up to this point. I think it makes me feel a little bit better to get it out there, and to have people read it. Even if it's just one person.