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I'm currently NEET after spending around 15 years in the corporate workplace. Most of my time was spent answering stupid emails and fixing people's issues with their computers. I am far less stressed being NEET but I find purpose difficult. Like sure I have more time to play guitar or play vidya or wank but the purposelessness is shitty.

More than anything, I want a cute gf who loves me and perhaps I would work hard to make a living for our kids. But I'm autistic asf so it's difficult.