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>Maybe I should just take a nap, clear up my mind.
>Kartana brain, if you're somehow listening...
>I have a feeling I'll get some weird dream again.
>If it HAS to be about how to "be" a Kartana could it at least be more descriptive instead of just wholly cryptic like my nap earlier?
>I will take any pointers I can get, just let me "get" them in the first place...
>...ah, did end up warming the water for the cocoa, didn't i...
>...I just went autopilot on it...
>Probably a habit I need to change...
>At least it was through the microwave instead of on the stove...
>I think if I tried the stove the fire would've definitely snapped me out of that trance.
>...well, down the hatch...
>...
>FEELS hotter than before, agh.
>But... At least it does still taste nice...
>Well, it does have a milder taste than before, but maybe I just didn't mix it right...
>...Nothing to ease the mind like a warm cup of cocoa.
>Just...
>It's all too much to think about, but I should be more... stoic, about this.
>Probably the best way to keep myself grounded and not completely insane...
>...Alright, that's enough for today...
>Best to go sleep.
>Hope I actually do get some rest out of it this time around...
>...Man, I didn't realize how badly I did fuck up my room until now...
>Hope I can borrow some wood filler off of dad soon to make them look decent...
>I can probably glue Red back together too if I'm careful, at least the NFC chip didn't seem to get damaged...
>Thank god I didn't try pulling out any of my CDs, goodness.
>Man, I turn into a Pokemon and of course I still worry about all my weebshit being intact.
>Great.
>Guess some forms of autism are too crippling.
>I think I'll just... lay down in bed...
>...
>Man I... hadn't realized resting on a pillow would be this uncomfortable...
>I think I'll just shimmy on down a little bit and...
>There we god.
>More like it.
>I'd feel odd about laying so... flat.
>But I guess it works.
>...
>......