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It's been years and I didn't "get over it". What was even you not getting that word. I never got that!! Are you retarded? I don't want you anymore, I'm just hurt and it doesn't heal. I wonder if there was an easy way that I never learned, because a wound that haven't healed for years is just gross and festering. Why did I let you hurt me. I know your sickness was a factor, but I don't know that. It was a very hard time for me when we met and I guess you helped but I don't know that. I need to learn to process the past because it's not happening naturally. I still want to impress you but it's impossible because I can't no matter what I do. It also hurts to think about how much time I wasted being upset. You deeply dislike me now while you used to love me, what did I do????????????????????????????????????? Why can't yo tell me?????????? Violent thoughts seem to help for some reason. I always prevent myself from thinking anything too bad. Maybe that's the issue, that might be the secret of not getting over something after years. There isn't an answer to anything, I have to figure out everything by myself and I'm not very good at it and everyone hates to answer my questions