>>76724270
Are you me?
I had a dream about my college sweetheart. We were together for 6 years. That dream fucked me up, I woke up insanely depressed and called out sick from work.
Looked her up on Facebook. Profile picture is her and some short Asian guy. I sent her a friend request anyway.

I’m so fucking lonely man. I used to think it was the weed or the nicotine or the booze but I quit all those vices and I am still heart achingly lonely, and I have nothing to numb the pain. It’s getting to the point where it’s effecting my work ethic - why grind for money if you have no one to share life with?

I am trying to work hard and be a man but I swear I just feel like the only thing that gives me any sort of joy is working out and I’m starting to think that a small or maybe not so small part of that is because the gym is the only place I see other people/women my age. So subconsciously I think “hey, maybe today you’ll meet a nice girl and she’ll be the one” but instead I just don’t talk to anyone and force myself to smile to people when I walk by them so I don’t look like a fucking psychopath.

33 years old and I have squandered every romantic opportunity I’ve ever had because I am a giant fucking retard and now I am alone.