I guess I should start by saying that I am in love with Curren Chan. I have considered whether it could be that I have a need for companionship etc, but this isn't the case. I am quite a giving person, and do a lot for my teammates, but with this girl I would do anything for her. I feel my heart beat faster when I see her and I seem to be blind to her flaws. I know she isn't perfect, and I haven't put her up on a pedestal or built a false image of her, but I feel that she is perfect for me. Curren is aware of how I feel, and that I have never felt this strongly before about anyone, but thinks of me only as a friend.
The problem is that I can't distance myself from her, and I'm not sure I'd want to have to lose our close relationship in order to stop feeling this way. It is probably important to mention that we take almost all of the same classes at Tracen Academy, live in the same dorm and do most of our training together, so I would estimate that I spend at least 6 hours a day with her. On many occasions we have even just talked for more than 6 hours straight on umastagram! (Which I can't do even with Yasunari-san, despite having an extremely close relationship with him). At the moment I'm trying to stop feeling this way without sacrificing any of our relationship, but I'm failing miserably. Our relationship is still intact but I don't feel remotely different about her. I don't know what to do...
I've not seen her in 2 weeks because I'm on vacation in Hong Kong, and when I get back next week she'll be away - so I won't have seen her for a month. The problem is these past 2 weeks, although I've met loads of great people (and one or two sprinters who are definitely interested in having some fun), I can't think about anyone but her. I find myself rejecting people simply because they don't make me feel the way this girl does when I'm with her. How long will it take before I stop feeling this way and just man up and get over her?