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I actually did seek out adults for this when I was 11-15 and pretrans. Also walked around naked in forests such beaches multiple times hoping I'd get raped until I got spooked by one encounter and jerked off with predatory muslims and nazis online instead. While I don't think their reciprocation was appropriate I also kinda don't blame them. At least they didn't blackmail me of make me cut myself like half the grooming gangs now. I miss being a pretty twink that felt wanted. Being a boy is cool. Being a man is intimidating. I'm like 75% gynophilic now.